What has been done, can be done again

SO many things have changed, yet so many other things have stayed the same!

I see that it has been several years since I blogged, I have been writing in journal regularly for the past 2 years... off and on, much like too many things in my life.

I have thought to do a bring you up to speed post, one day...
Today I am posting for accountability and to have documentation of my mindset and thought process behind what we are about to embark on to reach out health goals.

This morning, I logged in a weight of 354.4lbs my waist is 50 inches, my hips are 58 inches, my thighs are 34 inches.

I remember last year, in March when I went to Israel for the 1st time. Walking the streets of Israel, at a hurried pace, with friends to get a sense of Christ's experience, I remember thinking... "What have I done to my body? This gift of a temple has been trashed and abused, clocking in at 180.2lbs overweight. How did I NOT fix this before??"

I came home, dazed and distracted and FORGOT that feeling... for over a year! I won't begin to give excuses about what happened to let so much time pass without taking MASSIVE action; I COULD... and I won't, the past is gone and I will not spend my energy with that exercise. I am embracing the concept of "What has been done, can be done again"!

In 2002 or 2003, using a simple meal plan and VERY basic exercise program I lost 100lbs reaching my lowest adult weight of  about 240 lbs. At that point, I reached a size 16 in clothes. 
14-15 year later, 3 moves, 3 pregnancies and 3 daughters later, my weight was back up to 380lbs in April 2017; when I broke my ankle. Up to that point, I don't know when I stepped on a scale. The only reason I did then was to determine my weight to be able to know how my anesthesia that needed to be administered. 

There have been various attempts at one program, fad, or another in the past. The one thing that didn't change was my mindset to believe that I could actually reach my goal weight of 175lbs.

I have had a fantasy of competing in a fitness competition at 45 years old. I say fantasy, because I haven't been taking the steps to become the person to be able to compete in a fitness competition. 
Since Nothing becomes dynamic until it becomes specific... here we go!
http://bodybe1.com is the Alabama governing body of a fitness competition. (https://www.timeanddate.com/countdown/to?iso=20200128T12&p0=837&font=cursive&csz=1)


Is it possible, YES... Is it probable? Not with yesterday's mindset!
The weight breaks down to 0.64 lbs a day for 285 days...
The day will come, only my choices in the next 285 days will determine how ready I will be to enjoy the experience! 

'Til Next time!



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