Reality Check - Coming Clean

It is always important to take some time and look at your goals and determine if what you are doing is going to help you reach them or be the beginning of another excuse why you didn't reach them...

I have fallen into the excuse category... Head first, down to my ankles, in a muck and mire of... bad choices. I can't even bring my self to call them excuses or reasons. I am an adult and I have made some bad choices. I thought I needed to work for someone else, I interviewed and received 2 job offers, I accepted the part time job because I was attracted to the schedule. What I didn't consider what the work was not a good fit for me in my life right now. I just didn't not have the multi-tasking ability to move successfully through the program at the speed the company expected. (Even if those expectations where not fully clear to me at the time.) I was heart broken when they thanked me for my time and offered to provide a good reference for me for a future opportunity with someone else... Ouch, just OUCH!

I called a mentor and she said everything I was telling myself and I needed to hear someone say. Isn't it amazing how God works like that??

It is now July... They year is more than half way over... Lets talk a look at my goals, where I will admit my short comings and work to do better.

Perfection is not my goal. My goals are:
1)  Eat with awareness, no blind eating because something is there

Yeah, I could do better in this area, I have identified that when I am stressed I am more likely to eat whatever is around without thinking about what the calories of the food may be, but even worse, just eating crap that in no way fits into my meal plan. * Needs Improvement

2) Follow the plan for the exercise program I have chosen, currently T25

I KILLED it... well as much as someone that is over 360lbs could kill T-25. I recognized that I needed a meal plan that was flexible and simple to follow to get the best results. Enter 21 day fix; The meal plan is great! Simple to follow and enough food to keep me from feeling deprived while really nourishing my body. *Satisfactory

3) Drink plenty of water

I realized yesterday that I am not drinking enough water... * Needs Improvement

4) Write a blog regularly about this process sharing my challenges, results, and next steps

The fact that this is my first post on months says... *NEEDS IMPROVEMENT

5) Consistently lose 10lbs a month

Nope... I didn't get there. Vacations happened, family gatherings happened, and I didn't make the best choices. I kept my vacation weight gain to a minimum, but I can do better and I have since I came home with 5 children instead of 3. #SummerAdventuresWith2ExtraChildren * Needs Improvement

So, where am I now? Well I am hoovering right around 340lbs weight wise. Let me say this, I am relatively tall, 5'11" give or take a half an inch. Because I am tall, no one believes me when I say how much I weigh. It is a number, one to measure, but it does not define who I am as a person. I can acknowledge the facts of where I am within my fitness journey and hope that when I reach my goal, someone will be inspired and know that they can do it too! 

I am currently in week 2 of cycle 2 of 21 day fix. I have renewed my commitment to this process. I have set some 12+ month goals for myself that becoming a more fit version of myself will allow me to do. 

1. I want to canoe down the Elk River with my friend's church group next year. They did it this year and it looked like SO much fun! It is an annual outing so I have a year to get ready!

1. I want to ride roller coasters next June when we go to King's Dominion. I put on a bathing suit and road water slides with my daughters this past June. I am certain that I would NOT have been able to walk 5 miles with my 17 month old in my arms had I not begun this fitness journey... #SCORE

1. I would like to be a fit bride... When my husband and I married in 2003, we didn't have a ceremony. We always said we would. Almost 11 years later and not ceremony. We will have our ceremony November of 2015... more details to follow :-)

'Til next time