Morbid to Fit

1 week into committing to track my food and follow a simple program! I'm excited to say that Troy has been doing well, tracking his food, I think... he's always on his phone, so I'll say that is what it is... I've been about 80% with tracking my food this week and stayed under my calorie target for the food I tracked. My "cycle" is on so I'm retaining a little weight, I feel confident that the scale will move significantly next week. I asked Troy this week "What can I do to be a better wife?" He proceeded to go on a 7 minute tirade about how I "interrupt" him, by asking questions, when he's talking. My questions disrupt his train of thought and he can't get his point out. Full disclosure: I was NOT happy about his complaint. I listened and didn't respond, I had several questions, I didn't ask. I could have told him all the reasons I ask questions, to get clarity on what he's talking about. I realize, he doesn...

SO many things have changed, yet so many other things have stayed the same! I see that it has been several years since I blogged, I have been writing in journal regularly for the past 2 years... off and on, much like too many things in my life. I have thought to do a bring you up to speed post, one day... Today I am posting for accountability and to have documentation of my mindset and thought process behind what we are about to embark on to reach out health goals. This morning, I logged in a weight of 354.4lbs my waist is 50 inches, my hips are 58 inches, my thighs are 34 inches. I remember last year, in March when I went to Israel for the 1st time. Walking the streets of Israel, at a hurried pace, with friends to get a sense of Christ's experience, I remember thinking... "What have I done to my body? This gift of a temple has been trashed and abused, clocking in at 180.2lbs overweight. How did I NOT fix this before??" I came home, dazed and distra...

Life has been SO hectic these days! Watching what I eat and getting moving is a daily activity. The more I do it, the less of a chore it becomes. #Brightside School started this week for the twins and they LOVE their teachers! #AnsweredPrayers We were given the option to make a request for a teacher for this year and I did not exercise that option. My reasoning behind that was that by putting my children with the people that best suit their personalities, they are not learning how to deal with people that do not fit into their personalities. One daughter got a teacher that does fit into her personality and the other did not. I foresee some challenges, but nothing that can't be over come. You know what they say:  "What doesn't challenge you ... doesn't change you!" Which brings me to the NEXT big change, well the beginning of this process anyway. Next week my husband and I will start attending the 10 week mandatory training classes to begin the process of...

One of the ways I stay motivated is to participate in and conduct challenge groups. One of the members of a challenge group I am participating in currently posted the following message the other day: "I have to admit defeat... I let it control me I feel like a failure I am planning to be back on track but I'm feeling sabotaged & feel worse than when I started having to back to the beginning sorry to let you down..." My immediate response was to encourage her to cancel the negative internal dialogue. We tend to be SO hard on ourselves! Especially when it comes to making some improvement to our lives like eating better, getting regular exercise, or taking time for yourself (especially if you are a primary care-giver).  We all make mistakes, forgiveness is very freeing. By forgiving ourselves, as we would want others to forgive us, we free ourselves to be open for the greatness that is within each and every one of us! July is almost over... the year is more than ha...

One day at a time, that is really all we can do... Each day we are faced with choices. Each of those choices bring their own set of consequences. I feel really good about yesterday! I made good choices and walked through the day with a level of awareness that had been previously absent. While at my Mother-in-laws house, lunch was "mystery meat" hot dogs and chips. I ate peaches (they were the size of a golf ball) and an apple. #Boom In the past I would have downed 2 dogs and vowed to do better next time... Well, my fridge is stocked with salads that I prepared, yogurt, carrots, celery, and fruit. Today I will spend a good part of the day preparing my daughters' favorite meals... Here's to making the best choices for the results I want to receive tomorrow! 'Til Next time

I try to be very aware of what I say about my weight loss journey in front of my daughters. They are at that age when they have a lot of influences in their lives that I have no control over. So many young girls have negative body images from the media and magazines pushing impossible standards. The average size of the American woman is size 12-14, and models are size zero.... ZERO! When I talk about my journey, I don't talk about losing weight, I talk about becoming more fit. They see me workout and know that I follow the modifier in the video. My goal is to be able to do the moves in the video, with good form, and with intensity. I may over think some things, but this is something that is very important to me: my daughters' self image. They have a cousin that is very thin, who called them fat. It upsets me, but I try to help them reason through the hurtful things people say to them and acknowledge their feelings. One of my daughters has made a change in some of ...

It is always important to take some time and look at your goals and determine if what you are doing is going to help you reach them or be the beginning of another excuse why you didn't reach them... I have fallen into the excuse category... Head first, down to my ankles, in a muck and mire of... bad choices. I can't even bring my self to call them excuses or reasons. I am an adult and I have made some bad choices. I thought I needed to work for someone else, I interviewed and received 2 job offers, I accepted the part time job because I was attracted to the schedule. What I didn't consider what the work was not a good fit for me in my life right now. I just didn't not have the multi-tasking ability to move successfully through the program at the speed the company expected. (Even if those expectations where not fully clear to me at the time.) I was heart broken when they thanked me for my time and offered to provide a good reference for me for a future opportunity with...